Pathetic

Sunday June 27, 2004 - 3:29AM EDT

Pathetic, that is the only way to describe me, loser also comes to mind. Always when I go to sleep, I hope I don't wake up. This is consistent every night from senior year of high school until now. Most days I dread waking up. Only 23 years and I am tired of living, I just want to die. Don't have the will or guts to take my own life but people die everyday in the most random ways, maybe that will be me next. Time for sleep.