Many Thoughts

Thursday July 21, 2005 - 1:55AM EDT

I have a million thoughts in my head right now and I will only be able to record a few. First of is point of view. I know people who not neccesarily through any fault of their own have only seen things a certain way or been exposed to a certain point of view. Me, I would say that I have been exposed to more than the average person. When you have been exposed to many points of views they all become comical. When you see how different people view the same things in totally different ways neither point of view can be taken seriously. I'm not sure how to describe it but it is as if all points of view lose all seriousness. With some things no matter how fervent someones arguement is about something I just can't take them seriously, it becomes a game, a joke, surreal, when you know there is someone who is arguing just as fervently in a completely opposite direction.

I want to record these thoughts before they leave me. Why is it that whenever I like someone (for lack of a more eloquent way to put it) it seems to work out the opposite of what I'd like. Not only the opposite but completely contrary to anything that would even be slightly advantageous to me. Yet when I can't stand or could care less about someone I have to fight that crap of with a stick. WHAT THE FUCK! Will I ever get a break in regards to these things.

I knew before but it really didn't hit me until now. Learning a new language is like being a little kid learning to speak. Sure you can study and translate all you want but you'll never learn how to really speak like a normal person that way. You have to reconnect your feelings to strange new words. I heard of a man from holland back in medieval times who studied japanese furiously for years. He never went to Japan but when a japanese man came to visit him he could speak perfect Japanese. It was some dutch guy I think. Either the story is a complete fabrication or that man was one of the most intelligent people to walk this earth. I want to be that way, but fuck, learning another language is hard. It takes time. One would need at least 6 months to hear enough of the language to function properly and that is with intensive study outside of just being immerssed. But I think that in 6 months to 1 year anyone could learn to speak another language. That is it for this thought thread.

Crap, I forget the rest of my thoughts. To many at atime. To be able to express every thought and feeling in another language than your native tongue is an accomplishment. I think. And I mean everything. I attain a level of fluency equivalent to your native tongue. That is awesome.

I remember what the last thought was. When learning spanish, there is a certain verb tense that they say is never used in Latin American (2nd person, informal, plural). This verb tense is only used in certain parts of Spain. Well as it may be I happen to be from one of the only places in Latin America where they use this verb tense. No where else in Venezuela do they speak using this verb tense except where I am from. Weird. Even the other Venezuelans think it is weird. Not only do they use this verb tense but they use a derivative of it that is extremely old spanish that is never used comonly anywhere else. I probably should ask more about why and where else they may possibly use it but regardless it is still quite rare, I think. Como Estais, como estai.