BS Man

Friday June 17, 2005 - 12:17PM EDT

I don't feel like doing shit today at work. I have a few things to do and I'll get them done. I was just thinking that I've actually learned some good stuff here and hopefully it will help me get a better job. Funny part is that I started at this job by basically faking XSLT skills. I had never done any and I told them I had because that is what they were looking for. I had read some breif articles on it but not many and that was it. Now after thoroughly impressing them with my XSLT programming I am pretty good at it now. I just learned it online as I was doing various projects for them. I also have decent knowledge of Cocoon, Ant and Tomcat now. So this job served a good purpose. I've built up some cash, bought a new laptop and learned a few new technologies that will hopefully help in getting a better paying contract gig next time. Fuck, I should be able to command top dollar for my skills. You just don't find someone who has so many skills in so many areas easily. And who is a "good employee". I wish I could say I won't work except for a certain price. But fucking job market prevents that shit. What normally happens is that companies hire the cheapest fuck to do something and when they fuck it up because they haven't a clue companies waste even more money than if they hired the competent more expensive consultant. I am trying to be that competent more expensive consultant. I haven't wasted most of my life stuying computers so that I can be paid like your average college grad slimeball or ITT Tech loser. While those bastards where serving up hotdogs in high school I was repairing Fortune 500 president's computers (actaully I only did that once when I worked at Smith Kline on summer).

I'm 24. I've be doing consulting for companies for 10 solid years now. I wan't to be paid like a fucking 10 year veteran not a fucking 2 year fresh faced college grad fuckface. Those fuckers at MBNA who ran things were dumb as hell. Not everybody just a few of them they know who they are. To them I was just some noob. Fucking bastards I've probably been working with computers twice as long as most of those fucks. I was born with a fucking keyboard under my arm. Even when I was a noob entering the corporate work force (10 years ago) I was still just as technically compentant as any of the vets that I worked with. Of course I learned a lot from them as I've always worked with people willing to share experience and knowledge which is good. I've also worked with some assholes who like to hide everything (read MBNA).

I should be being paid so much right now that I could pay off my loans in a few months, with cash. This is bullshit man. Do you know how many empty nights I spent in middle school, high school and college figuring out some random computer shit. That shit is supposed to pay off now. Well I'm still getting fucked (actually I'm not which is another issue). I shouldn't have to live in my parents house to save money. I should be paying for their houses. Side note: sometime after I graduated college my parents suddenly had lots of disposable income that they never seemed to have before. Sure they have better jobs now, but damn, are kids that much of a drain on finances? Back to my displeasure with my current job situation. Where was I? Oh yeah I should be getting much more money. I don't even want a lot of money. Just enough to live comfortably with adaquate healthcare and maybe enough to make a small independent movie every now and then. And fund scientific reaserach and eventually build a spaceship and become a space bounty hunter. The rest would go to funding the education of all the people of the world so that no one ever has to pay to go to school at any level (schools that teach science not that mysticism garbage except as in a historical context).

This is bullshit. Side note: The recent destruction of "informal homes" by the Zimbabwe government is disgusting. It is like a scene from a fucking movie and no one is doing shit about it. All the talk is about debt relief while a quarter million people's houses were burned to the ground and they were left for the wolves to eat. I'm not concerned though. Usually if you are going to tear down homes you build some high rise rats nests for people to live in or at least have a plan to build someplace for these people to live.

Back to my problems screw them for now. This is bullshit. I'm hungry. I had indian yesterday. I'm down to a 3 resturant rotation. Idian, sushi/japanese, curry/vietnamese. This is bullshit. I should be commanding a higher salary. How does that saying go "God helps those that help themselves". Yeah I know I've ranted on the whole god thing before, but it is not going to stop me from using a clutch saying like that. I have to stop saying "clutch" that shit is turbo stupid. This is bullshit. I'm sick of this crappy low paying work flanked by slack jawed trogolodytes and knuckle dragging cro-magnons. I would accept low paying if I liked what I did but this shit isn't interesting. This shit is bullshit. Which reminds me I have to learn Final Cut Pro. I need to go someplace different for lunch. This is bullshit man. Why am I sitting in this office picking my ass? This is bullshit.