crap

Thursday June 2, 2005 - 3:58PM EDT

I'm 24. I'm getting old. Before I know it I will be 30 and my life will be over. 6 years left. Fuck, my life is already over. What a freaking failure. I'm not a man, I am a little kid. This is garbage. What the fuck. I'm way below rock bottom. I am approaching the molten core of the earth. What am I going to do today after work? Nothing. Stare into space. And if I try to do something it will be thwarted. The kibosh will be put on it. My whole life is a fucking kibosh. An excersise in restraint and futility.