Odd
Tuesday May 17, 2005 - 4:52PM EDT
For some odd reason I posted the same thing twice. I've been keeping the posts in notepad and must have lost track. I removed the duplicate.
So many things make me angry I just want to blow up the earth. But I am also lazy so it evens out. I'll go home, jump rope work on website stuff (organizing invoices and finishing an update). Damn I haven't gotten drunk in a while. I need some of that shit now. Maybe bar tonight. Ha yeah right when do I ever go to a bar. Besides there are none close that I now of. Since I have done precisely squat today...I just blanked out for a second. That was weird I don't even remeber what I was going to say. Oh yeah, I'm scared someone will catch me writting in my blog so every time I hear a chair creak I get nervous. I sit with my back turn to everything (everyone does, the desks are lined against the wall). So when I hear I noise I pretend by clicking on one of my many opened work applications to try and fool whoever may be watching. Never had a problem but they probably see my sad attempts to cover up that I am not doing anything and feel sorry for me and just don't care.
I got nothing else to do so I have nothing cohesive to say. I am all ranted out so mainly this is just true stream of conscienceness writting. You are reading the precise thoughts that are going on in my head right now. Well just one thought thread of the many threads since it would be impossible for me to type out all the threads at once. The sex thread alone would take like 24 pairs of hands going at 200 wpm to type out. Listening to Third Eye Blind right now. Been listening to my mp3 player all day. I remeber when I ran into Stephen Jenkins in a San Francisco bar, ha. This nascent headahce is pissing me off. I am starting to ramp up my energy level though, it always happens like this towards the end of work. I can jump rope for a solid 25 minutes straight, though some days my rythm is off and I miss skip a lot. Man I want a freaking drink. Star Wars comes out soon, maybe I'll catch a flick tonight. I can't imagine what my coworkers think of me. They know I don't do shit. Only 45 minutes left. Thinking about breasts right now. Female human breasts. What I am going to have for dinner. I think baby spinach and grape tomato salad with chicken breast. I still need a haircut (as a obsesively touch my hair). I was playing with my hair one day and someone remarked that it was a sign of sexual frustration. Anything from TEB is playing right now. Battery life on this new player is astonishing. It has been going nonstop all day (at least 5hrs) and it still says full charge. I also left it on last night playing mistakenly for about 8 hrs. Still no word on my check.
About 30 minutes more until work is over. I'll continue with this stream of thought until then. Freaking traffic on the way home makes a 10 minute trip take 20 or 30 minutes. I just don't understand how being in an office all day makes one so tired. You could be out of the office for the same amount of time and you don't get nearly as tired. I'm becoming progressively more bold with my workplace slacadasicalness. I remeber when I first learned the word lackadaisical. I thought it wasn't real and the teacher was playing a joke on us. It sounds so fake. And actually it is one of those irregular compound words that came to use in the 40's so it was fake and became real. It is 4:30pm everyone has left for the day even though they all came in after me (9:00am). I could leave and put down 5 but I have to much honor for that. Besides now I can fart with reckless abandon. I should do that anyway while everyone is here just to liven up the joint. Just eat a whole bunch of goat cheese for breakfast or something. When I came back from lunch it smelled like someone took a dump in the trash can. It was quite gross.
My mind is totally blank right now. I stare into space and literally there are no thoughts. Besides about how my mind is blank. I am going to leave a few minutes early. I don't feel bad because I usually get here 10 minutes early and don't charge them for it. It all evens out. Fucking headache is flaring up. Was just looking at MSN entertainment photos. Nothing special. Though what is the deal with Lindsay Lohan, she looks sickly. It doesn't look like her natural weight. Spooky. Time to get out of dodge.