If I had an office

Thursday April 28, 2005 - 12:27AM EDT

I would not have cubicles. Instead there would be plenty of windows for a sunny and airy feel. Just came back from a movie. As the credits rolled all I could think off was "back to the dregs of reality." I am really starting to like my jacket I bought a few months back now that it is almost fully broken in and loose. I is replacing my grey hooded sweathshirt which is a good thing, because that thing gets nasty. In other news I got a new brand of contact lenses. They seems really good, I barely even notice them I think they are better than my former brand. No I am not naming brands, you'll just have to ask if you want to know.

Time for self deprecation. Damn I am a loser, I wonder what would happen if I wasn't such a complete slacker. Nothing because I'm still a loser, but maybe I would regret being a loser less. Nah, loser to the end. Ok what's next. Can't complain about the job yet, because there is nothing to complain about. I'm sure I could find something small but it is not even worth it. I will say this though, this is the first job where as soon as I leave work I completely forget about it. It is strictly 9-5 and nothing else. I don't go home with monster headaches. Maybe because it is so quiet in the office, everyone seems to be quietly doing their job and nothing more. No one seems very social, which is fine with me. My wrist is getting better but it will still take a week or two before it is back to normal. Just a dull numbing constant pain now. It is similar pain to what I get in my knee every now and then. Fuck not only am I a loser, my body is breaking down too.

I wish it was warmer this 60 bullshit had got to go. I want minimum 70 all the time. I especially like warm nights, I fucking hate cold nights. I don't have much hope of making any real money on the software, though I am still working on it. I think the real money maker is my other idea with web hosting and art stuff. Maybe not, but at least my intial numbers estimates seem feasible and realistic. Fuck, life blows.