Time Management

Tuesday March 15, 2005 - 1:54AM EDT

I am getting better at organization and time mangement but I still suck at it. Today I totally forgot about my doctor's appointment, even though the reminder card was sitting on my desk right in front of me. Nothing much went on today as usual. Worked on websites, very slowly getting them done, but making progress. Working on dutchhuff.com right now and should finish that this week. Getting a bit annoyed that I haven't worked on the software in about a week. Nothing is going on with it so I guess it is ok, but I can't let it stagnate. This weekend has to be the weekend where I start on the enhancements. I have a lot of ideas for enhancements and want to work through them to make sure I make it good. I also got some things to test out to make it even easier to use. All these projects and websites are good and all but I don't make enough money on them right now. Maybe I could if I was a bit more organized and actually tried to go out and find freelance work. Fuck, I need a job, ha.

The only place I went today was the gym, so I have no interesting anecdotes. Why do I continue to wake up everyday with hope that something good will happen? My spirit is crushed over and over again everyday. I just wake up, workout and work on websites. See or talk to a friend occassionally and that is it. My expectations are too high. I should lower them and just accept my journey on the path to Loserville.

Right now at 1:49am EDT I'm alternating between writing this blog entry, glancing at whatever is on cartoon network at the moment and staring at the ceiling wondering why the hell I am so pathetic. Actually I don't wonder why anymore I just lament the fact. I'll be 24 soon, damn I am a loser and I am powerless to stop being one.