You smell that...

Friday December 10, 2004 - 12:45AM EDT

I had job interview on Thursday. The second one I have had in a month (which is good for me). I just don't even care anymore about trying to impress these companies with flashy bullshit. I go to the interviews in t-shirt and jeans (today cargo pants) and just lay it out for them. I know what I know and if I can do the job you'll know it. On the last job interview I essentially turned down a position that would have paid very well and demanded more money. So they didn't hire me. When I told someone this they looked at me like I was crazy for turning down that kind of money. Fuck that shit I refuse to be THE MAN's fool.

The past few days I have been feeling realy good. A solid basline punctuated by frequent euphoric moments. Weird, because I have also been sick most of the week too. Maybe it is because I have been working out regularly again. Everyday this week for at least an hour. I have also been getting these wicked headaches everyday for the past week. Some of them have been extremely painful, so much so that I can't even stand up. Finally finished the firt version of technical documentation for a website application I am working on. As it stands now it is 232 pages, took me all week to write. The second version will be much more detailed and probably over 500 pages. Feels good to finally finish the documentation. Now I just have to go back and check two installation of the software then begin working on the enhancments. I am getting really organized with the software. I am also investigating upgrading the software to .NET technologies. With the documenation I wrote it shouldn't be that hard. Also everything is pretty modular so I can port in stages.

Going to setup a website for my web development and design work soon. Will have the ability to track all my clients give them the ability to view invoices and work history online. I am thinking of creating software trying to sell it. Web-based software for freelance designers. I think I am getting closer and closer to being able to not ever go back to a regular 9-5 again. Things are still up in the air but I feel good about my recent progress. Still a whole lot of shit to fix, like redesigning rolandgifts.com. I am kind of ashamed of the site now, it badly needs and upgrade. Maybe I am being overly optimistic, I probably need to go back to work eventually but hopefully it will be doing something I like.

So I began to jot down the movie ideas that I've come up with recently. Will I ever get to make any of them? The first one I want to do takes place in Japan. That would be cool, making a movie in Japan. This weather although crappy has produced smells that give me a feeling of euphoria every now and them. Reminds me of something, don't know what though.