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Thursday February 12, 2009 - 4:32AM EDT

The days are hard to get through. I am trying not to dwell on mistakes and just move ahead with the slim hope that we might be together. It is hard though, that spectre of not being with her again is hard to shake and would be devestating. I can't think of it. I miss her a lot even though we communicate daily. I want to better myself for her and make her happy. But that final decision is hers not mine. It hurts everday. But I must hold on to some hope. And if it doesn't work out accept total devestation.